how do you write research? beautifully, like nobody's gonna read it

there is a woman who is half-elegant with green hair here
and then I cannot think anymore
for things stop inside of me
and I am falling but I don’t know towards who so I fall towards anyone who is willing to
stand in the way
and then random boys who

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jeg tenkte nettopp at joda, jeg skal ta kontakt med en person jeg egentlig... ikke burde ta kontakt med. jeg vet ikke hvor lurt det var. 

og hva slags ting tenker jeg paa i disse dager? om jeg skriver det paa en blogg klarer jeg kanskje aa artikulere det, tror jeg, det er en slags workbook, men jeg skriver ikke ut noe. 



statement scribbles:

Weaving, language, 

intimacy, packaging, wrapping: letters, gifts, individual gifts to the viewer in separate envelopes

can we make another skin? can we etch patterns into people that were not previously there, and dictate where they go, and what they look like? or superimpose a new language? 

individual pieces, individual threads forming a larger cloth, wrapping around the body, the face, the mouth. anonymous labour, invisible labour: dedicate a lot of time to making something which will not be noticed, or which is expendable, like a hand-woven and -dyed surgical mask, expendable and meant to be discarded after use. or a simple piece of paper, slightly frayed at the edges, but beaded intricately and worked on for hours and hours. small things, and small movements. 

intimacy, packaging, receiving something or viewing something only for oneself, so when you view it, the work is meant for just you, it is meant to be seen by just you. 

translation; my brother’s music into a medium I can understand, wanting to use my own language to express him? to translate into mine.

collective and individual memory, investigation
processing collective trauma?
collective unconscious? hmm, sounds too avant-garde, haha

collective memory, blanks, banks? bank of collective memory
memory of cloth: jordyn-linen, what memory is retained in cloth? how much does it remember? do-ho suh, lee kit. 
linen, also masks: memory of the people wearing them;
send a mask to a person, ask to have a photograph of them wearing it, then send me that and something else, something of their memory of it, can be a photograph? shells and husks from bugs; weave-memory of the body, clothes we take off retain our memories.
masks, discarded? no, used, gifts, send: make a uniform package and type up a letter (service bureau print? or matte printers?) to: 

[[ names excluded
privacy still matters ]]


historical consciousness
collective memory


memory

photographs: how do we look back, how do we perform nostalgia?

lines of time/memory, languages
abstracted languages, memory retained in features: faces both beaded and lined





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dancing with my insides: ann and Chinese girl from site practice, dancing with something that cannot be danced, for example:
-grind down something with your foot that is right below the floor 
-reach your heart through your ribcage, but do not move your head arms or legs
dancing with my insides: spasm, twitch, uncontrollable, or rather, extremely well controlled

(how do I study dance?)

suicide: drowning: water in the face - slow drowning... writings on suicide? the bell jar, sylvia plath, lise


dance: Tavia, Silver Linings Playbook, girl with funk 6 years old, Rihanna dubstep twitch
DANCE INSPIRATIONS AND EXERCISES FOR MYSELF.

dance exercises... not costumes

light: flashlights, weaving, woven lights
letter from jordyn: ask pappa scanning

feet and hands: jordyn, bjork (i saw her): o’keefe’s hands

Neruda, book of questions
master-student: forgiveness
CS Lewis: Mere Christianity: “there are no ordinary people, it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub and exploit.”
“How monotonously alike all the great tyrants and conquerors have been: how gloriously different the saints.”

questions and written practice: PAOLA

book (tq japanese)

Andrea Zittel, daily life and practice

William Kentridge: Felix in Exile 

and

Peter Greenaway



many many many thoughts, here we go

writing systems, subconscious writing, calligraphy, Bhutanese script, and how it looks, combined with hitakana and katakana and kanji and Chinese (v. old but also traditional)
and tissue paper, on the wall, very, v. mundane material (exhibition at the Met, go back and look at it, ink on cardboard) EVERYDAY (failure)

RESIDENCY AT [[[[, WRITE TO MOM AND DAD ABOUT IT
APPLY FOR FUNDING FROM TRAFO
RE-POST ON FACEBOOK AND MESSAGE FRIENDS WHO COULD BE INTERESTED

Song Dong “stamping” or writing on the Lhasa river
his water writings, water calligraphy, water diary, breathing on the ground to create ice, beautiful and slow

the sound of the paper, pasted onto the wall with water, falling down - one morning, clear everything out and paste up papers all around, document it
all-night performance, Ann Hamilton and Jordynn, in so many ways

(Shahzia Sikander art:21

Frank Thiel’s frozen images, end of the world, polar vortex, Svalbard, industrialization in the midst of wilderness? what does that mean? and Letha Wilson? not that, but htatttt

all-night performance, where is the documentation for it?

Shahzia Sikander, paper and wax paper, like a book on the wall, with pages, etcetera, very tall, dimensions of a space? dimensions of my studio space? draw out and measure out the dimensions with my body? somebody did that, but what if I do it, what happens then?

Dawn Lui > king of Mong Kok, EE, ask her about informationa nd his name, covering something with writing, covering my studio and (myself) with writing, hair writing, 
women’s writing, jess fan, 
the pillow book
house of leaves

hair writing, skin
cave painting, heat textile, heat responsive textile, base/basic instincts, 

COMMUNICATION AND MISCOMMUNICATION (it hurts too much to write her initials here, too....) 

what are we
who are we
where do we come from
sophie’s world

Letha Wilson: jacolby satterwhite
jayoung yoo

hair space meditation performance naked
fetishistic objects, but so simple

what am I writing on these walls and floors? 23, jim carrey, obsessiveness, mad people, jordyn, madness and obsessiveness what is that? stereotypes, the omen biblical clippings, writing everywhere, la piel que habito, trening, what is the meaning of writing no one understands? like screaming into the abyss.


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